Title: words under fire
Author: Mandy Sinclaire
Disclaimer: If they were mine, I would be a lot cooler.
Notes: littlecodfish wanted some gen, and i've been trying to get out my feelings about this part of canon for awhile. take that and getting re-active at milliways, the game famous for playing with appearance of words, and throw both in a blender. (it blends everything!) result: we have this.
The problem with writing a song to expunge your feelings is that sometimes it turns out well. In fact, one could say that what Noodle has penned to paper is damn good. Unfortunately, most of what could be said around Kong is usually, simply, because nobody (including Noodle herself) knows when it's time to be quiet.
turning us into fire
It's time to be quiet now, and only Noodle knows this fact. But to express it would be to express her discontent over her past, something she is not willing to do.
push it real push it real it's real It is not due to a lack of trust, but rather to never break that unshakable mask. She is stable, she is perfectly fine, she can handle it all, she can stay on her toes and hold her own ground. turning us into monsters
Except for the part she cannot do any of those things at all.
turning us into fire
So she writes. Noodle writes, occasionally forgetting she has done so, leaving papers behind.
mesmerize One such victim of forgetfulness is Kids with Guns. To save face, she must go along with it when it is picked up and shuffled in. Russel notices that it bothers her - he's always the one to notice - but she merely waves it off. 'I'll be fine' she says 'The song does not have much to do with anything' turning us into monsters
Except that it does. Except that it always will.
turning us into monsters Except that recording it is not the expunge of feelings she wanted, but rather a traumatizing trigger each time they go over it. The whole album is. The problem with writing to express your darker past is that you are upset when people notice, but even more upset when they don't. turning us into fire
She's almost had enough and when 'Quiet Village' comes out of the dark, she's simply gone for good.
easy does it easy does it they got something to Mentally, she's separated herself. push it we've got to Physically, she's packing her things away - packing herself away, essentially. street desire She has no idea where she is going to go or even why she has to, turning us into but Noodle cannot make it around there any longer. She will not be a Gorilla any longer. She simply cannot handle it. i don't know what i
The wall cracks, the clock falls, the boxes disappear
load your ammo and keep and all of a sudden, Noodle finds herself fighting off the very things she's seen in her darkest of nightmares. after night become Becoming the very thing she tried to prevent by leaving, dawn because the fact she separated herself cannot stop this metamorphosis. don't kill me now
Wasn't life just a bitch?
don't kill me now don't kill me now don't kill me now don't kill me now don't kill me now don't kill me now!!!!!!!!!!!!!